“Once this round goes down the
barrel, there is no calling it back.” Every
now and then in a law enforcement officer’s
(LEO) career,
this statement has been made under one’s
breath--with your .45 hammered back on condition one
and screwed into the ear of a really obnoxious jerk,
who needs the full brain effect of a Remington 230
grain round--costing exactly fifty cents. After
carefully contemplating just how much paperwork is
involved following the discharge of a weapon, the
hours of debriefing by the prosecutor’s office, and
court reviews three years after the fact, most of us
return our firearms to a safer, less immediately
lethal position, and “stupido” has yet another
chance. Was THIS the real reason we pinned on a
badge and strapped on “ole blue?”
Symbolically, we could mutter something similar
before we rip and tear on the innumerably lazy,
incoherent, thoughtless, careless, and recklessly
dangerous fellow citizens we encounter each day on
the highways of America. Dear God Almighty, is
there ever an end to these half-wits? It’s as if
they appear by the thousands each day from the
School of Incompetence in Detroit. It does not
matter how many
LEO's are on patrol they just keep
coming. Is this why we signed on with the thin blue
line?
My sarcasm here is yet another update on how
badly we are doing as a nation of sloppy and
ill-informed citizens. Starting with the
politicians at any level of authority, the failed
outcome in the end is the same. It is increased
numbers of “leaders” who care only of self-interest,
self-aggrandizement, self-enrichment,
self-promotion, and ultimately, self-destruction for
the republic. The point IS, it is about self, not
others. These people are terribly flawed, wounded
by mostly self-inflicted events, and virtually,
irretrievably lost human beings. Our nation is
full of these individuals. Fortunately, we still
see some intervention by self-LESS people, many of
them lawmen, who are there to pick up society’s
broken pieces.
Where are more role-models of civility, virtue
and compassion? Where are the church “pastors” who
are commanded by God Himself, to preach TRUTH,
morality, Christ’s salvation from self-generated
sin, and the steering of the lost to the Cross? The
Christian church has broken down across America.
Courage and leadership from the pulpit have been
replaced with scriptural cowardice and a quest for
“happy” members who give most generously and find
nothing to fear or receive of value from the leaders
of the mega-congregations, except more smiles all
around and a hollow, “God loves you…”
What happened to men of strength and valor like
Illinois State Police Trooper Ed Houghtby. He rode
so valiantly down the streets of my hometown in
Shabbona, Il. My father and my hero, Robert Evensen,
a WWII B-24 pilot, spoke highly of Ed, because of
who he was, what it was that he was “made” of. I
saw him just last year. Long retired now, he was
standing in the local cafe like a great symbol of
what was. What has changed us so, into such a cold,
brutal country? Can we ever have heroes again like
Ed, who handed me the baton, hoping that we would
want to step up and take their place?
I went on to Escanaba, Michigan, in 1960, where
I attended junior high school. What a marvelous
place to grow up, along the shore of northern Lake
Michigan. My friends Jim Moore, Kevin Curran, Ray
Sigorski, and many others along with my beautiful
wife Betty, were classmates at that wonderful Upper
Peninsula school. We had heroes like the Green
Berets, Mercury Astronauts, and the Blue Angels. We
won ball games, went to dances, and grieved together
the cold and rainy November day John Kennedy died.
I remember hearing about my boyhood friend’s
father, a Conservation Warden, killed in the line of
duty by a poacher in Hermansville, Michigan, in the
early 1960’s. I knew this good man and was saddened
when he died. It seemed like we began to change in
America about that time, and I believe in fact, we
did--for the worse. So,…was this why we thought
about becoming lawmen, to make it right, again?
Conroy O’Brien was a fellow Kansas State
Highway Patrol Trooper. We roomed together at the
academy. Conroy was the first REAL Christian man I
had known. He and I worked together on the Kansas
Turnpike in 1977. Conroy was shot and killed during
a felony traffic stop one early spring morning south
of Emporia. His wife Tanda was carrying their first
child. A dozen or so years later, I was speaking at
a large church in western Kansas. I mentioned
Conroy and the impact he had on my life. I told the
crowd about what a hero he was to me and the example
he gave. At the conclusion of the service, to my
absolute shock, Conroy’s widow Tanda, and the girl I
assumed to be his daughter walked up to me and said,
“So you must be my dad’s friend.” I’ll tell you for
sure, tears came to us all. I knew that in front of
me that day was the absolute meaning of family,
love, devotion, courage, and honor all in that one
place. I will never forget it. Other family members
followed up and we lingered in those precious
moments realizing how Conroy’s sacrifice had not
been in vain. I stood in the cold wind and snow
beside his grave in his home town of Abbyville,
Kansas four Decembers ago recalling his voice and
laughter. Did we do this knowing we would have to
honor men like Conroy?
Later that evening on the way home, I reflected
back on those years and realized how close we all
really had been. There was just an
u-n-d-e-r-s-t-a-n-d-i-n-g about how these things
were supposed to be. Why it was we had all entered
the academy together in Salina, Kansas, in 1974.
Many were Viet Nam veterans, we served along side
Korean War veterans, we were led by WWII veterans
and we knew the meaning of the words, “devotion to
duty,” “the ultimate sacrifice,” and “never leave a
buddy behind.” If some of us had not actually lived
the words, we knew those who had, and we carried a
few of them to their eternal rest. In those times,
steel is forged. After that, you were never the
same. Was this the price we had to pay to “earn”
the real value of the badge?
My good friend, retired Iowa Sheriff Jim
Schwiesow, took the time to write me a wonderful
personal letter explaining what I had already
observed about him. Jim explained how during a
meeting years ago, he was asked to reveal his
position on a law enforcement question. He answered
precisely as he should have and as he believed.
There should be no favorites in a Sheriff’s eyes.
ALL should be treated with dignity and justice. His
honest, correct answer ended the meeting with Jim’s
position on the matter clearly stated for all to
hear. No if’s or maybe’s, everyone hearing the same
words, some reacting clearly differently than
others. And so it is with men of great moral
leadership. Thanks, Jim. And thanks to fine Lawmen
like: Rick Shumard, Jeff Evensen, Ben Evensen, Brian
Berntson, John Daniels, Chris Stanton, Larry
Zeutenhorst, Maynard Brazeal, Richard Mack and Jack
McLamb. If we had not had Kurt Russell’s Wyatt
Earp, Clayton Moore’s Lone Ranger and James Arness’
Matt Dillon, we would have been just fine, for those
fictional heroes have lived in reality through these
great lawmen of our day. Was it to be there for
others and keep them from harm that we said yes?
Many of you in law enforcement understand
perfectly what I am saying here. This is not about
reminiscence, but it is about upholding the golden
moments in life that all other moments are measured
by. They remain models to be talked about, placed
as mementos of the heart above our fireplace for
others to admire. They must always be so, if we are
to have any hope of sustaining a future that holds
similar moments for those coming behind us.
If we are to maintain the BELIEF that there is
hope for our nation, then we must support, educate
and work with law enforcement across America to
identify and prosecute the REAL criminals who would
rob us of our REAL liberties. If we are to accept
that through the efforts of tens of thousands of men
and women employed as police officers, sheriff’s
deputies, state troopers, investigators, special
agents, lawmen and women standing in the gap, then
we can turn away this national evil and there is
hope. We must continue to give LEO’s real support
to protect us from the bad guys that DO need to hear
a click-click in their ear. Those up the food
change that would enslave us just because they
can--and just because “someone” else like a
perverted Janet Reno says to--must be added to the
bad guy list as well. Remember Waco, Ruby Ridge,
the constant excesses of the BATFE and the threat of
a government that arms poultry inspectors. Don’t
forget, you’re not paranoid---if the threat is real.
You know, in my mind, I served in the image of
The Lone Ranger and Wyatt Earp. I did not live in
Dodge City, or ride a white horse. But it was in
the symbolism of my role as a lawman. Along with
countless thousands of others, I never took a DIME
for my badge. I never walked away from the really
hard moments. I never traded favors with another or
distributed “street justice.”
At the end of the day, I rode off in a blue and gray
State Highway Patrol unit. Like so many
others, I pinned on the badge to make a difference.
Like all of my lawman brothers, I made sure that my
heart knew the absolute difference between right and
wrong. Along with all of you, I still do, of
course. That is why many of us fill our lives
with opportunities to speak out from our experience
in ways we can to help America stay on that
time-honored course of lawful decency--in spite of
the dishonorable people and events in Washington.
After 35 years, I have handed the baton on to my
son. It’s his responsibility now.
However, the fire is still in my heart and mind.
Like so many before me, and in honor of the oath I
have never been asked to take back, this is a job
I’ll finish the day I report for duty with those who
have passed on before me in the next life. You
see, those of us who have been the thin blue line,
have never retired or gone off duty, really.
We’ve just been assigned a shift that never rests
and that “rides” through the night with you as
permanent back-up. No short-cuts, no loss of a
Godly purpose and a just means to finishing the
detail. Don’t be weary friend, don’t quit.
Watch out for your partner. Keep the race that
is set before you. Serve, protect, and
defend…..no matter what. Stay true to your
oath all the way to the end. Honor our nation
and its constitution by your faithfulness to
righteous law. Keep your badge untarnished and
your weapon holstered as often as possible. Above
all else, stay safe, keep your powder dry, and go
home tonight to your family. In the end, that
is why we did this. For all of you and for
them……….